I wish

In the most intense feeling of abandonment, I wish that your love for me ,overcomes your fears.

Frozen

I read and reread

I look and relook

Same messages

Same photographs

As they all seem frozen in time

I still stand where you left me

I wish

I wish I was someone she wanted

I wish I was someone from around here

I wish I understood her ways better

I wish we could share a beer

I wish I was someone she trusted

I wish I was someone who was always there

I wish I was someone she loved

I wish for me she cared

I wish I looked a little more like her

I wish I looked a little less like me

If I’m really wishing the truth

I wish I wasn’t me

Insignificant

I was always irrelevant rather insignificant

Nothing magnificent nothing important nothing exotic may even be nothing worth mentioning

In this existence of worthless completion

I yet, somehow managed to keep myself

It wasn’t until I saw you and then I saw myself in your eyes

It wasn’t until you allowed me to be something of value

It wasn’t until you valued me as a person

It wasn’t until I fell from your eyes

It wasn’t until I couldn’t see myself anymore

It wasn’t until you picked me apart

It wasn’t until you broke my heart

I finally realized my insignificance, my existence nothing magnificent

Sum of zero is zero

You just didn’t have to take the time from your magnificent existence, to stop and remind me of my insignificance

Again

I can’t believe you did that
Now I will never trust a soul again