I don’t completely believe this guy but certain facts check out.
Monthly Archives: March 2014
After man hits a certain point in life, by a miracle it dawns on a man in the dark. The life he may have lived was dark. He did not see what he wanted too, so he closed his eyes to what was in front of him. When somethings shatter they can never be put back together, the feel is different the touch changes. He realizes that nothing interests him, he lives and exists to repair the damage. He wishes she will see him struggling and walk over and say I see it. Morale is low, strength depleted but he goes on towards the only home he may have known. Many places he found for himself but home was a feeling he tied to another being. It no longer matters the room or the doorway, he does not sleep much anyways. It is alone that he travels, companions all abound. It is not the matter of hate, or regret. It is a matter of belief that he only felt in her. Absence of that being, let’s him see but not feel. If there is to be another life, he will know better. If there is to be another touch of her hand, he will never let it go. He promises this to himself and begs for her mercy. All the while knowing, that she does not hear him, knowing that she may have given up and walked away. In his solace he realizes his mistakes. In his Solace he reminds himself, debt must be paid…
You are a like a broken knife in my rib cage. I cannot seem to remove you and you haunt me in day time and night. When awake and asleep. Enjoy killing someone who meant no harm. Enjoy the ignorance you live in, just so you may feel better and have it easy. Guess what? If it makes you smile and sleep better, so be it.
How would you even think I would do such things on purpose? How would you even believe that I would have ever betrayed you in such a manner. Your doubting me made me doubt myself for 5 years now. 5 fucking years I spent questioning my shadow, my capabilities, trusting my own instinct. The pain the pure torture you put me through, simply because you were too arrogant. Despite of all of this, even today I never wished you ill, I never once wished you harm. You ruined my life and yet I pray for you to be happy. Replace me, if you can.
Hello Mini Annie,
One day when you are all grown up, big and strong. Maybe someone will show you this. If daddy could sell little pieces of his heart to make it all better he would. If I could just put it in words how I miss you, I am pretty sure that a new language will be invented. Everything I have has your name on it. I spell your name at least 20 times a day. I wake up every single day praying for you and a chance to make up to you. Your absence has taken my ability to be happy. I celebrate your birthday alone every time and pretend you are there. I imagine what you do, how you are. Tears sometimes come out of nowhere but I suffer this because:
You are mom’s life. She loves you more than anyone can, perhaps even me. Grandma made me promise one thing. Never separate or get between a mother and her child. I know this now looking back at my own life. I would be dead or would have given up if it wasn’t for my mom. Point is that I walked away so many times from a fight because even if I win I loose.
I am sitting in a rest area traveling through Wyoming. I just had to let you know that sure as the sun rises, your daddy misses you every moment. I don’t complain for what happened, I am not innocent in gaining this fate. At the same time I didn’t exactly do what your mom believed I did. But it is okay, her anger is only a reflection of the love she has for me or had at least.
I thought you might be interested in this story: San Jose, Calif. Cop charged with raping the person he was tasked to protect.
The cesspool that is San Jose now. Went from being a cool big city to Creep- ville that never ceases to amaze me with the quality of humans it hides.
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