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Alone love Terror

You are alone because of your arrogance, or your inability or your decision not to compromise and mostly because of your restrictive understanding of loneliness. None of these have anything to do with luck or God. So quit blaming everything and everyone else. Loose the attitude, come down a few notches or heavens in some cases. Quit making a spectacle of yourself only to garner pity and no real consequential relationships. Stand up and fight for whatever your goal is. Carping will not result in resolution. Life will run out if you keep instituting your quixotic standards as your only guide. Compromise and learn to be content. Compromising in love is not similar to compromising in life.
Remember, your are beautiful because someone else thinks so. You are a good person because you behave lending to that fact. Beauty is truly skin deep.Value people who care.

Dying alone isn’t the worse thing in life, never making anyone feel like you loved them is.

Being not loved isn’t the worse thing either, never making someone else feel loved is.

Tread lightly, no one is getting out of this world alive, be it war or peace.

Killing innocent people in the name of God is a sin, call it what it is. A man can justify any act should he decide. There is no more reprieve from your lonesome existence in a blaze glory then it is in you dying old alone an no one to care for you.

You want to fight for Syria, go to Syria, killing random citizens in random countries is against all religious preaching’s.

God is love, love God, love his creation.


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Musings of the family liar

Why do some of us lie? Is it out of fear? In my case it certainly is not. So why do I lie? Is it for some sort of distorted notion of a noble cause? some twisted sense of martyrdom or is it a survival mechanism to the survive what could be impossible to survive otherwise. Or is it laying ground for failure in relationships and fulfilling some self prophesied  catastrophe?

I could lie just to benefit, however the results prove otherwise. I have never benefitted from my lies, I have rather only suffered. I have also been called a liar because I refuse to give certain information about someone. I would skip the defects and make someone look good. The question is , if I did that to accept them myself or to help them pass some sort of scrutiny of others.

There is a saying, “Men hate those, to whom they have to lie”.  That literally explains my distance from certain people. People whom I have had to lie too all my life. Just to keep them happy and even guilt free. People who can be held accountable for their lack of certain qualities in certain capacities, where I had sought their counsel. Their arrogance that kept them from guiding a young mind the right way.

I lie to those whom I believe, that either they do not care or will be incapable of doing anything for my plight. I believed that the truth will make them fight a battle that they cannot win, so ignorance is bliss. Hence the standard answers to the question, ” Hey Sammy how are  you? I am doing great”. Do I really want to tell them, actually I am hurting so bad that I keep inflicting physical pain to distract my mind from what bothers it the most.

I lie because I do not want to burden those now who were not there then, when I needed them, and are certainly incapable today to do anything about what has already passed.

I lie because my pain and my problems are no one’s business anymore.

I lie because I do not want to share my troubles. Because my troubles are not fodder for your gossip.

I lie because some pain that was inflicted on me, was from people that we as humans trust to never hurt us.

I lie because I am more used to being disliked by the one’s closest to me than I am liked.

I lie because I can no longer bare to think I am burden on your little heart.

I lie because I wanted to protect a utopia, where you lived in bliss.

I lie because it is easier to lie than to help someone understand the truth. Truth which may involve them understanding devastating consequences of their actions or inactions.

I lie because I secretly want to please people I love.

Most importantly, I lie because I do not want anyone to see how broken I am.

And yes, that smile was a lie, so I gave it up.

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You know this, which is why you behave the way you do, well, enjoy. You never had my back, but I always did.


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Cherish you

To be someone that others may cherish so your own may cherish you, sad.

To be a great man so the one’s who put you down the most may change their minds. Because the one’s that put you down the most were the one’s you loved the most. No one should be made to feel that way. But most of us do.

We all have our own Judas closest to us. The one’s who take the hope away from you often don’t see what their words do to you. ” get a real job”, “you will amount to nothing”, “you make less money then I do, what is this a joke”

Careful how you load your own failures onto the persons you love. If you want something get it yourself, and if you fail, don’t pressurize the next of kin or a loved one to get it for you. Live your own life. let others live theirs.

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Child abuse

Child abuse is a strong term, however it’s strength lies in legal ramifications associated. The real child abuse never gets any attention, consider the time elapsed between physical harm and the beginning of it. It begins with regret mother’s or father’s build for that child.
Innocence of children is innocence of angels. You are probably a vermin if you choose to exploit that.
A mother truly has a God given right to her child, there isn’t any dispute there. I can’t imagine the feeling a mother has for offspring and it truly is a privilege to feel that way about another person.
A mother who abuses that privilege is damned, in this world and the next.

The only real compass and belief a child has is words of her mother. To corrupt that for any sort of gain is probably a sin.

When a mother uses her child’s trust to resurrect revenge on her father, she is truly damaging that child for life. Calling the father names, falsifying truths, creating friction between the father and child are double edged swords. No matter how well one can play the victim, the consequences of this blame game will leave only one real victim, damaged for life. That is the worst kind of abuse. It leaves no visible marks but it scars a child for the rest of their natural lives.
Chinese saying “Disaster comes from the mouth”. All your efforts, all the running around, all the higher education means nothing if you cannot raise a good person. For you to pollute the purest is evil, it is unforgivable.
✋ Stop before it’s too late. Majority of people are not bad by birth, they truly are products of their environment.

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“Get a real job”

A recent study served to confirm the patently obvious: song lyrics for the most popular genres of music are ridiculously obtuse — and getting worse over time. Though this might not be a revelation, the figures are distressing indicators of both an intellectually vapid societal and cultural future as well as its apparent inevitability.
If you’ve already moved away from Billboard music, congratulations, you refuse to be insulted. But if you haven’t, or if you’re concerned about pop culture trends acting as portents of systemic dysfunction, you should probably pay attention. Andrew Powell-Morse of SeatSmart studied the “Lyric Intelligence” of 225 Billboard songs in the Pop, Country, Hip-hop, and Rock genres that spent three or more weeks parked at the top of the charts to analyze any changes over the course of ten years. And change there was.

Ten years ago, the most popular songs read between a third and fourth grade level, but the inanity only increased with time, and after a five-year downward tumble ending in 2014 (the last year of the study), chart-topping hits had a reading level equivalent to second or third grade. Broken into genres, the levels measured just 2.6 for Hip-hop/R&B, a tie of 2.9 for Rock and Pop, and faring best was Country at 3.3 — though declaring a winner in this insipid race to the bottom seems somewhat defeatist. Even further to that point, the most intellectually stimulating song, Blake Shelton’s Country hit “All About Tonight”, measured just 5.8, while wading deeply into the ludicrous was Three Days Grace’s “The Good Life”, at a level equivalent to 0.8 — begging the question, did they have to try to craft lyrics a kindergartner could easily read?
So how did this happen and why is it getting even worse? For the sake of brevity, this is a systemic issue being reinforced across the board by pandemic anti-intellectualism. Some have argued there is no harm in a bit of mindless distraction, but this is incontrovertibly false. When just six corporations control 90% of the media, and 80% of radio stations have identical playlists, mindless content isn’t a choice — it’s a virtual mandate. In this self-propelled cycle of banality, the conglomerates dictate content to be promoted by radio, which in turn pushes it endlessly, creating a false perception that what is being played is due to listener demand. But this insidious marketing ploy is more akin to kidnapping and is every bit as dangerous.
There is a dearth in music options over the airwaves, so when vacuous lyrics are foisted on listeners, they become captives under duress. It is scientifically proven that flexing the intellect can slow cognitive decline, but there has been a cultural shift away from stimulating thought in favor of homogenization and living for the moment, and empty radio content is both symptom and reinforcement of that trend. Society is focused on entertainment, materialism, and self-promotion, and when coupled with a need for instant gratification, it’s really no wonder we’re in such a sorry state. Occasional forays into mindless distraction would be understandable and harmless if they were just forays, but the foundation is faulty due to a sharp decline in quality education at every level.
Education has become the highest form of indoctrination with teachers forced into regurgitating information so their students can pass tests rather than become innovators and original thinkers. And who could blame them? Currently, they’re held to the ridiculous system where their performance is ranked, and salary determined by how those students perform on standardized tests that are, themselves, flawed. As Randi Weingarten, the president of the American Federation of Teachers, put it, “This country has spent billions on accountability, not on the improvement of teaching and learning at the classroom level.”
An education system based almost solely on taking tests is not only intellectually dimming, it’s stressful — instructors doling out the tests are given a set of instructions for what to do when students vomit on their test booklets. All of this is designed to send students to college where the situation is perpetuated. According to Catherine Liu, a film and media studies professor at the University of California, “We don’t educate people anymore. We train them to get jobs.”
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From a political standpoint, all this ‘dumbing down’ makes sense: indoctrination creates obedience. If music and culture focus on mindless diversion, and education lacks, well, education, then people lack the acuity necessary to question the absurdity of the system. Those who manage to liberate themselves from this mold and have the gumption to question official authority will find a cozy spot on the government’s watch list. So while we bemoan our country’s lack of intellectual prowess, it isn’t by a failure of design.
The author of aptly titled Idiot America, journalist Charles Pierce, thoroughly summed up the issue this way: “The rise of idiot America today represents–for profit mainly, but also and more cynically, for political advantage in the pursuit of power–the breakdown of a consensus that the pursuit of knowledge is a good.”
Unfortunately, if the lyrics study is a prognostic omen, the epidemic of idiocy will only get worse.

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It is entirely too convenient for people to dodge competition, by deeming their opponent unworthy off your effort. People in the business world do it all the time. A small soda maker will often say bad things about Coca Cola in company of it’s peers. Often making statements such as ” We are real soda”  or ” We are healthier” etc. What you really are is a small time player who lacks the vision to not just compete with Coke, but you can’t even make enough noise for them to buy you out. Same applies for many other small businesses. They have these bullet proof impermeable ceilings under which they rest in comfort of their mild successes.

Same carries over to friends and family. It is so much easier to deem someone so worthless, that you are unwilling to waste your breath on them. This someone could be someone you once loved and adored, today they are not worth a passing thought. It is your decision to let people go and it is understandable, but take your time and investigate the fact that the same person you put on a pedestal once is now worth less than a grain of sand to you. When it comes to family this is specially important. It is extremely important to be able to look past what is immediately obvious and what is comforting to you in your moment of loss.

People discard people today as if they have no value. What good is your love if it is only valid when their reciprocation of what you offer? Sometimes you fight to fight, because it is the honorable thing to do, not to win, not for the glory but you fight someone or something because your opponent needs someone to stand up to them. You may not even want too, but your loved one may need some resistance to realize life itself and for you to realize that you can go the distance if needed.

Compete against the greatest of odds, in life, in business and in love. For you never know what reward lays ahead and even if your did not survive the battle you can die in content of the fact that you truly tried. In God’s house result and efforts both matter. This world is little more generic in it’s selection of good men, out here successful men are often confused as good.

If mother Teresa, Edhi and Rosa Parks etc only did things for success many people would have no one. Some do it because it is what is the right thing to do, knowing that they will never be able to feed all the mouths or bring equality and justice to all, but they never gave up to the worse odds imaginable.

So compete, with life, with love and  by doing good to other whenever you can.

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