For last 5 years I have refused to celebrate any birthday, holiday or have taken a vacation. For last 5 years I have only dreamt of my little mini me with me some where chilling. That little kid has this habit of getting comfortable no matter where she is, one foot resting on the nearest object and laying back as far as possible at will.
Until the day she is on my side sipping juice or milk I not going to rest or take a day off in peace. I hope my friends and family can forgive me for never being there. But, my life is not complete without the little one. I came to terms with that last night on my 482 mile commute, it is okay, I will punish my self worse than anyone can imagine.